This pic is truly a representation of how I feel after writing. It just takes all of the emotions out of me and leaves me happy but drained lol. Enjoy
Swollen Eyes and Empty Hearts
Here I am, again
Waking up to this familiar feeling.
This familiar face.
These swollen eyes and this empty heart.
You Had Me Open.
So wide, for the very first time.
I felt like a stranger inside of my own head.
Allowing myself to be free and happy
but then it all just fell apart.
No alerts….no warnings.
But this is me so what else should there be
these swollen eyes and this empty heart.
Years go by and you still have not called.
He waits around so patient, with so much hope.
Waits for you to cash in on the
million promises that you have made.
He stills holds on to those empty words
the ones that you left him here with.
“Son, I love you.” “Son, I’ll come for you.”
Bullshit that he is slowly beginning to uncover.
No longer will he be so naïve as he sees the days
turn into weeks.
The excuses begin to float from one ear and out the next.
His swollen eyes can easily be repaired,
but that empty heart, for you, will forever be there.
Trying to ignore the several times
that I’ve been here.
Trying to ignore the inevitability of me always
Trying to remember a time when I was
In this moment…
This fucked up moment.
Where swollen eyes and empty hearts
Where darkness is so mundane.
Where any shimmer of sunlight is hunted down
and destroyed immediately.
Where all hope for anything different
Where our want for anything different
will no longer matter.
Where swollen eyes begin to dry out.
Where this empty heart will just be a
So loving, so beautiful, so soft
these will be adjectives of the past.
So dark, so unforgiving, such malice
these will be the descriptive words that
overtake these swollen eyes and this empty heart.